I'm a Witch.
A good one.
But I'm not always happy.
I'm human.
The harnessing of emotions of my shadow, make me Sovereign Women, unto myself.
As the electricity stayed off on our property for the last two days, at the peak of the first new moon of 2021, the sun came out, trees came down, my attention shifted inward and to what was directly infront of me.

No unintentional distractions.
I LOVED every minute of cooking on our wood stove and playing uno by the light of the gas lantern. 
The prayer of oneness I was seeking,  gave me sweet relief from a low vibration I had been hanging onto for the last few months. 
The spirit of the earth, the universe, my sweet son, beckoned me to come play.
The tiny spider that caught my attention and whispered hello from beyond.  
Jesus painted a rainbow over the sunset of the ocean and said never forget you are not in competition with God. There is nothing more you need to do or be, that can ever be more perfect than the gift of all that is already given.  YOU ARE A GIFT FROM GOD! Stop trying to change the nature of who you are.
How could you be more perfect than a miracle?
It's not possible.

Sweet baby Jesus, thank you!
The lights came on and here I am, writing to you.
But I had already seen the light.
I saw the other side, you know the one that's always in your own back yard,
you just have to decide to look from a new angle.
I have an amazing life.
 I have consciously made every decision to get me everything I could ever have dreamed of,
and I ditched the habits that were weighing me down.

When I was drinking, the power outage would have called for A LOT of wine, manhattans, probably champagne in the morning.

I would have missed the gift.
I wouldn't have been available to release some heavy energies I was processing.
I may not have even been processing them.
When you don't  drink, somedays are like the garbage that comes up in the yard after a heavy rain.
It was always there, I was just solving my emotions with booze.
I didn't even know it at the time.
When you drink, you miss out on living in totality.
You miss out on what is given.
You might not realize how much, because now it's the norm.
But trust me on this one.
It's HUGE.

As we carried the final tarp of branches to the burn pile from cleaning up from the storm,
we paused to take a break.
Emmet took my hand "to give me energy".
I knelt down and hugged him.
He said let's sing that song, to put a little song in your heart, you are my little sunshine.
As the sun was setting over what felt like a spring day in the middle of January, my heart needing NOTHING more, without a care if the power ever came back on, we sang to put a little song in each other's hearts.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine...".  

The tarp felt half the weight it had before our break.
This my friends, is Magic.
Alchemy.
The elements inside and out, matter, FOCUED ATTENTION, the present moment, I mean REALLY being there, with ALL of your senses, and our heart felt intentions combined .
Decide on what you want, put a little song in your heart, and ANYTHING's possiby.  

I have attached a spell I created to banish booze.
Something a little light hearted to start off the year , but by all means, no joke.
When you do this, find a liminal space, an inbetween space, right as the sunsets or rises, the edge of the ocean as the tide comes in, between the dirt and the grass. All transitions require a bit of the unknown.

That's the adventure of this life when you go get what you want.
You have to fall in love with the gap.
This weeks episode on the podcast talks all about making a decision.
You have to make a new one, in a new way, to get a new result. 
It's the only way.